Halloween

I'm so tired of the stupid TV program with the Halloween stuff!! They scared the freak out of me!!!It was like 1 or 2 am and I turn the TV on and it show some dead bodies and I freak screaming in my room. Lucky my dad and sis didn't hear my scream if they do I'm gonna kill myself!! If you guys know me, you guys probably think I'm so touch and all those stuff but I'm not. Well I use to till the day my grandma dead which effect my life a lot cause I'm start to believe that ghost are real now. U guys wanna know why? well I'm gonna tell ya anyway.....It started when my grandma still in the hospital....one day I accident go to the wrong elevator and it bring me to the level where they put the dead body -.- I can tell cause it freaking cold in that level also there ton of body that cover in white sheet. Also when my mom say that my grandma soul come back to the house for some reason. That is when we in Washington DC cause of my grandma dead, anyway since my mom say those type of thing I'm start to scared that my grandma gonna come back to the house again and I'm start to scared of the dark and be alone by myself. Than like a month later I keep hearing my grandma voice in my mind and it called my name and I start to be freaking out so I was running as fast as I can and I start to turn on the lamp for couple of months on from 7 pm to like morning. Now I'm find with no lamp but the TV have to be ON!! And one thing I find it strange is that I'm scared to watch horror movies now, I use to love to watch those type of movie now I just.....I don't know....I guess I'm scared of those type of movie now. So don't talk to me about ghost story now or I'm gonna be freaking out!!!! Anyway I think they shouldn't try to scared people on TV like that, it just pissed me off how they scared the crap out of me. But it still Halloween so I won't complain but when Halloween over they better not show any those creepy movie or I am so gonna complain about it!~!
OK, enough with those stuff, yesterday I'm really stressed out cause it was raining like the whole day where I live. So my temper go up and I bring out those anger to my friends -.- I really didn't mean to yelled at them but it just that my temper gone up so it just gone out of my mouth. I try to apologize to them but they won't listen or pick the call so i'm just gonna wait till they not mad anymore and apologize to them. So now i'm like blank, I keep thinking are they gonna forgive me or not so yea I'm just sit here looking up at the sky. For some reason I wonder how far are the sky........I wish I can touch the sky once in my life time :]